That’s pretty much what I’ve been up to. Well that and a ridiculous amount of self-promotion. Also, reading since I’ve had some time. This is my version of busy and it is a version I enjoy. Couple all of this with school and I’m surprised that I have any time to sleep.
It’s exciting to be doing things I love to do, that’s for sure. Keeping up with these things will be another struggle all its own. I tend to lose motivation rather suddenly and then next thing I know is that I’m spending all my time napping. That usually means it’s time for my medication to be adjusted. Chronic fatigue sucks and since mine is a symptom of my clinical depression, it just makes it worse. If my chronic fatigue comes back, then I know a depressive relapse is just around the corner. I don’t want to deal with that again. Like, I literally just got out of a major depressive episode that was actually pretty scary for me. I don’t know if I could handle it all over again. Inevitably, I will most likely have to but I would rather not think about it.
I have been feeling a lot better since I started my medication but my chronic fatigue is slowly creeping back. I am just exhausted no matter what I do. So I have an appointment Friday so I can head this off and adjust my meds before it’s too late. Hopefully all I need is a simple adjustment and not an entire change. Getting used to new antidepressants is the worst.
For now I’ll continue to push through and hold on to doing the things that I love.