Writing, Writing, and More Writing

That’s pretty much what I’ve been up to. Well that and a ridiculous amount of self-promotion. Also, reading since I’ve had some time. This is my version of busy and it is a version I enjoy. Couple all of this with school and I’m surprised that I have any time to sleep.

It’s exciting to be doing things I love to do, that’s for sure. Keeping up with these things will be another struggle all its own. I tend to lose motivation rather suddenly and then next thing I know is that I’m spending all my time napping. That usually means it’s time for my medication to be adjusted. Chronic fatigue sucks and since mine is a symptom of my clinical depression, it just makes it worse. If my chronic fatigue comes back, then I know a depressive relapse is just around the corner. I don’t want to deal with that again. Like, I literally just got out of a major depressive episode that was actually pretty scary for me. I don’t know if I could handle it all over again. Inevitably, I will most likely have to but I would rather not think about it.

I have been feeling a lot better since I started my medication but my chronic fatigue is slowly creeping back. I am just exhausted no matter what I do. So I have an appointment Friday so I can head this off and adjust my meds before it’s too late. Hopefully all I need is a simple adjustment and not an entire change. Getting used to new antidepressants is the worst.

For now I’ll continue to push through and hold on to doing the things that I love.

A. Rose

6 thoughts on “Writing, Writing, and More Writing”

  1. I too find myself losing motivation and productivity due to my anxiety, usually falling into an agitated and restless and emotional state where I can’t focus on anything. Along with new medication, I’ve tried finding other ways to help manage these moments. I hope you readjust/get sorted! Thank you for sharing.

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      1. I’ve started adding some exercise to my routine – even if it’s a ten minute walk outside, because it gives me some fresh air and clears my head. I’ll also add in some meditation or take in some deep breaths whenever I feel myself becoming restless or overwhelmed. Small things like drinking a cold glass of water or taking a shower also help me. Lying down/resting my eyes is another alternative if the other things don’t work on a particular bad day. I’ll also try to remind myself to take small steps towards gaining that motivation back – first I’ll aim just to get out of bed, then I’ll aim to eat breakfast, seeing them as individual tasks rather than trying to focus on a list or else that becomes intimidating and thus leads to lacking even more motivation and energy. I’m not sure if these things will work for you, but I hope they do! Have you tried/do you have any kind of self-care methods?

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      2. I really don’t. My therapist says I need to make time for self care but I never have any time. I just got a gym membership and have been trying to make an effort to go but have been slipping due to this chronic fatigue. Mostly I just read but that only helps so much.

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      3. Ah, I see. I suppose with the gym you could start small in terms of how long you work out, or which kind of exercise – something that isn’t as taxing. Swimming, I’ve heard, can be gentler. I know what you mean about reading. Sometimes you have to be in the right zone to be able to sink into that relaxation.

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