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Well, Hello There!

My goodness, it has been a bit yet again! I keep falling off the map but honestly, I needed the break. Things in my life have been going rather well. The biggest thing is that I got married! We had planned on having a wedding in March but we ended up eloping earlier than that in October. It was super fun and exciting and I got to go to Vegas for the first time in my life. Don’t worry, we’ve been together for 7 years now, so it wasn’t some crazy, I didn’t know this person thing. It’s a good thing we eloped, otherwise, our wedding would have been canceled due to COVID-19.

COVID-19 has been crazy and we have been staying home as much as we can, I hope you are too! I gotta say, wearing masks everywhere hasn’t been fun but I understand that it is necessary.

As for my writing, I have been taking a much-needed break from all of my projects. I have so many in the works that I haven’t been keeping track of things like I should. I hope to have a new book out soon but we shall see how that goes. I’ve mostly been focusing on school and work. I graduated this semester with my Associate’s Degree with an emphasis in Psychology. Now, I’ve decided to go to business school instead of pursuing psychology. It a crazy story as to why but I am not going to get into it.

Anyhow, I just wanted to check-in. I know my last post was forever ago and I try not to be away for that long. Just know that everything is alright over here and I hope to have new work done at some point.

Daughter of Athena is still doing well and thank you to my fans for hanging in there with me!

 

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Events Coming Up!!

I am like so on edge waiting for my release party. I just want it to be here already! Like I hope that people show up but at the same time, I’m happy to be able to have the event. this will be the first time I really get to celebrate the release of my book. I thought about not doing anything but decided against that. I’m weird when it comes to celebrating things about me; I usually don’t like too much attention. I know, I’m a writer, so that statement is cliche and well frankly, an oxymoron but whatever.

Either way, I am preparing for this party and I still have no idea what to wear. I feel like my usual T-shirt and jeans approach wouldn’t be appropriate but club wear would be too far haha. I will figure it out I’m sure, the party is February 8th, so I have time.

In addition to the release party, I will be doing a book signing February 24th at Boneshaker Books as well! I am so excited that this store was so willing to work with me! Next on my list is to topple Barnes & Noble but that’s gonna take time. Lately I have been debating sending my work to an actual publisher but I want to see how everyone feels about it first. It is in my goals for this year, I just have to figure out how to do that.
Especially since it’s basically a novelette and not everyone goes for those. That is not going to stop me from trying!

So I hope you all are reading and enjoying! Get a copy of Imitatore from amazon.com, barnesandnoble.com, and even go to stores and request that they order it! Rate it on amazon, barnes & noble, and on goodreads!

A. Rose

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Almost There!

It has been a hectic last few days for me, so I apologize for the gap in posting. The release of my book is almost near. I am really excited and hopeful for that day. So far, the reviews from some of my advance readers have been really uplifting. While I would like to be one of those people who is able to say that I don’t need the opinions of others; that is only slightly not true about me.

Positive reinforcement is actually a very helpful thing for me. Though, I do love constructive and helpful criticism as well. Its just nice to know that someone other than me enjoyed something that I wrote. It makes me blush, it makes me giddy, and most of all, it makes me very hopeful for my future as a writer. Honestly, I’m sure I’ve said this way too many times already but I’ve always wanted to be a writer. I never really felt like one and I let fear get in my way too many times to count. I’m still fearful but I’m pushing past it this time.

For the first time in a long time, I think that I’m actually happy. There are no dark and sad thoughts lingering about in my head. I guess the right combination of medication can really change a persons life. Don’t get me wrong, nothing is perfect all the time by any means, but i do feel a lot better. I’m excited to see what this year has in store for me, rather than dreading another day.

So January 11th is marked on my calendar and it should be on yours too!

A. Rose

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Waiting is Torture

I am so ready to get this book out there and the wait is driving me crazy. I know, editing and formatting are things that cannot be skipped. These things are really the most crucial part of the process but I am so ready.

I have been emailing bookstores and now I’m trying to find book reviewers as well. I am trying to really set myself up for the most success possible. I am terrible at self-promotion because I hate talking about myself. I always feel like I’m bragging or something and it makes me super uncomfortable. However, I am really going to have to get over that. Like super fast.

It is something that I work on in therapy constantly. Being able to believe in myself and stop selling myself short on everything I do. I have to learn that it’s okay to be proud of myself and it is okay to celebrate my accomplishments. But how on Earth do I do that? How does anyone really?

This is what is holding me back from having a release party. I want to do it but it would basically be an entire celebration about me. Truth be told, I don’t even like birthday parties that much (I mean I will have them but ya know). I think it’s my anxiety really, all that attention on me makes me nervous. Maybe all writers are like that and it’s sort of counter intuitive. You want to share your work with the world but also want to hide in the shadows at the same time. It is difficult to have both I suppose.

I’m going to do this and I’m really going to face my fears while doing this. I think that’s the most important part of this whole journey. Growing past the things that scare me and learning more about myself in the process. Still haven’t gotten over my minor agoraphobia but I’m gonna get there. Oh yea, I didn’t mention that, I have a big fear of leaving my house. I do leave my house but I’m at a heightened state of anxiety the whole time I’m out. It sucks but I’m working on getting better. So yea, it’s time to face my fears and grow.

A. Rose

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Not Running Away

There are times when I get scared, a lot more than I would like to. It often causes me to give up on projects before they are even finished because I’m too afraid of the possible outcome. Right now is really no different than all of those other times.

I am afraid. I’m afraid of failing, I am afraid of putting myself so far out there, and most of all I am afraid of disappointing those that believe in me. I think that this is a rational fear to have, even if I hate it. I guess that if I’m not scared then that must mean that I don’t care, right? At least that’s what people say. Right now, the only thing my brain is telling me to do is to “tuck my tail and run” but I am not going to do that. The only way I can disappoint those that believe in me, is to quit.

Like I have said many times, this is a dream that I have had for so long. If I give up on it, I really would be letting myself down more than anyone else. All my life I have wanted to be a writer and now the opportunity is starting me in the face; it makes me incredibly anxious. What if it turns out that I’m not a writer at all? That I’m not as talented as I hope that I am? I know I have to believe in myself and part of me does, it’s just that mental illness part of me that picks at that. This may be a ‘woe is me’ post but hey, its my blog. Imitatore means everything to me. I have put in so much time, effort, sleepless nights, and now money. I just don’t want it all to be for nothing.

I have to believe that it won’t be. I have to believe that this book will reach someone somewhere. In fact, I know that it will.

A. Rose