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I Want to Know You!

This blog would not be much without my followers and supporters, so thank you so much for being here!

I am curious about who you all are and you are in no way obligated share. Where are you from? What do you do? What is your passion? What made you follow me? You can share anything else you would like to and you are free to ask me anything as well! Have fun with it!

 

A. Rose

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Waiting is Torture

I am so ready to get this book out there and the wait is driving me crazy. I know, editing and formatting are things that cannot be skipped. These things are really the most crucial part of the process but I am so ready.

I have been emailing bookstores and now I’m trying to find book reviewers as well. I am trying to really set myself up for the most success possible. I am terrible at self-promotion because I hate talking about myself. I always feel like I’m bragging or something and it makes me super uncomfortable. However, I am really going to have to get over that. Like super fast.

It is something that I work on in therapy constantly. Being able to believe in myself and stop selling myself short on everything I do. I have to learn that it’s okay to be proud of myself and it is okay to celebrate my accomplishments. But how on Earth do I do that? How does anyone really?

This is what is holding me back from having a release party. I want to do it but it would basically be an entire celebration about me. Truth be told, I don’t even like birthday parties that much (I mean I will have them but ya know). I think it’s my anxiety really, all that attention on me makes me nervous. Maybe all writers are like that and it’s sort of counter intuitive. You want to share your work with the world but also want to hide in the shadows at the same time. It is difficult to have both I suppose.

I’m going to do this and I’m really going to face my fears while doing this. I think that’s the most important part of this whole journey. Growing past the things that scare me and learning more about myself in the process. Still haven’t gotten over my minor agoraphobia but I’m gonna get there. Oh yea, I didn’t mention that, I have a big fear of leaving my house. I do leave my house but I’m at a heightened state of anxiety the whole time I’m out. It sucks but I’m working on getting better. So yea, it’s time to face my fears and grow.

A. Rose

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Oh, Editing

Not exactly my favorite part of writing but definitely a much needed process. I will admit that while I can cook up a story, often times my grammar and structure fall to the wayside. I’m in such a hurry to get the story out, which causes me to overlook things that I probably should not be. I mean who could fault me? We all do it.

I appreciate my editors more than I can say. A second set of eyes is more than a want for me, it is a need. Without them this book would most likely be a very big mess. Even if I go back and read my own work (which I do), there are things that I will miss. There are things that I have missed that they have caught, much to my appreciation. Not to mention the very helpful constructive criticism I receive. So if you love this book, you have them to thank as well.

I’m happy that I am in the editing stages because that means I’m almost ready to publish. I will be publishing in January, I want to wait until my boyfriend and I are settled after we move before I add anything else to my plate. Right now I am trying to find ways to promote myself and get some small hype around this book. I am also figuring out how to throw a release party as well. These are things I need help with. I need book reviewers, small independent book stores that would be interested in my book, and ways to get the word out there. I cannot do that without a network and without support.

It may be a lot to ask but I typically don’t ask for much. So as I am editing and getting this book put together, I hope to get people interested in it. How do you do this? What would you suggest?

A. Rose

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Using Insomnia to My Advantage

I spend a whole lot of nights awake for seemingly no reason at all. Well, not no reason, insomnia is the reason. For as long as I can remember, I have had trouble falling asleep and staying asleep. It is both a blessing and a curse. The curse part is obviously being tired all the damn time and then having people tell me I’m too young to be tired (like they could possibly know anything about my life).

I stare at the ceiling, I watch countless amounts of TV, I read a lot of books, but most of all I write. I figure if I’m not sleeping, I might as well be productive somehow. Much of Imitatore was written in the dead of night, while watching reruns of Intervention on Hulu. Writing is and always has been a pretty solitary time for me, I find it easier to be creative when I’m alone. It is much easier when I feel like absolutely no one is watching me. I’m sure I’m not the only one that feels this way.

I haven’t had a good nights sleep in what I’m pretty sure is years. Despite the myriad of medications I have been on for this problem, nothing ever really seems to help. I haven’t felt rested in so long that I think the only way I will be able to exist is exhausted. The horrible part about all of this is that fact that if I don’t sleep, that means I don’t dream either. Imitatore is ultimately a dream world of mine, one I have actually been deprived of for a while now. I am glad I finished the book but I really miss dreaming about the world I created. Hell, I miss sleeping.

As I begin the sequel to Imitatore, I am hoping that with the adjustment of my meds, my sleep problems will get better. There are no guarantees really since nothing has worked before but I’ll keep my fingers crossed.